Archive for May, 2012

Welcome to my pregnancy blog

Posted in Pregnant on May 31, 2012 by Me

These are my uncensored thoughts on being 42 and pregnant. It’s not always going to be happy feel-good, so please understand that this is my outlet. I put the dark things here to get them out, and the happy things are here so that I can keep perspective. You are welcome to come along, but if you feel the need to judge me for my negative thoughts, I reserve the right to moderate your comments, and eventually remove you.

Honesty is important to me here, so that other women can come and see that they are not alone in not being happy all of the time. There is a lot of pressure from society to be happy about being pregnant, and well, it ain’t always a fun time.


Yay Ultrasound!

Posted in Emotions, Pregnant with tags , , , , on May 31, 2012 by Me

Everything went super well! We got to hear the heartbeat and the little Spawn was wiggling all over the place. Everything looks right on track for the due date, which is awesome. Words can’t describe how it felt to see that little baby on the screen and hear its heartbeat.

I have an appointment set up with the Perinatal specialist for 6/12, since I am old and require extra supervision 😉

Still nauseous this week. And the heat kills me (which kind of sucks, living in Las Vegas, where it’s in the 100’s now and we don’t have A/C in the car…). I was a little crampy after the ultrasound (it was vaginal). I’m really looking forward to the second trimester, where maybe I’ll be able to cook again. Well, I can cook, but I don’t want anything to do with the food when I’m done, lol.

We made our announcement last night, and I’m handling the attention really well. I’m finally able to be happy about this. I’m so grateful that the early depression has passed! Mood-wise, as long as I keep my blood-sugar up it’s all good. I’m back down to my pre-preg weight, which they tell me is ok, since I started out 100+lbs overweight.

9 weeks 3 days!

Posted in Pregnant with tags , , on May 30, 2012 by Me

Tomorrow is my first ultrasound!! I’m so excited. I’m also nervous that something will be wrong… but I have no reason at all to think so, so I’m trying to stay positive.

More tomorrow (and pics!)

Excellent News!

Posted in Pregnant with tags , , on May 25, 2012 by Me

My medical coverage and our foodstamps have been approved! There are a few more papers to push, but I should be able to get my first ultrasound in the next two weeks 🙂

8 weeks 3 days

Posted in Pregnant with tags , , , on May 22, 2012 by Me

So the wonderful people at UMC set me up with an OBGYN who will see me free of charge for 90-days with my pending medicaid 🙂

Further synchronicity happened later on the same day as my meeting at UMC. I went into work to do a prenatal massage for a woman who is exactly two months ahead of me. During the massage she gushed about how wonderful her doctor and his RNP are, and how he has taken care of her for all four of her pregnancies. At the end of the session, she gave me his card. Yep, you guessed it. It’s the same doctor that I already had the appointment with! This really gave me some peace of mind with just having a doctor randomly assigned to me.

Had my first prenatal appointment yesterday. Things went well– they set up my referral for the perinatal doctor, who will be supervising my prenatal care. I will be seeing both doctors, starting soon. I’m hoping that I can get in with the specialist by week 10, to get the Down’s Syndrome screening done. I wasn’t able to see the baby at the appointment, as their ultrasound equipment was down, and I won’t be able to get my first ultrasound until my medicaid comes through (unless we can come up with $150 that will be reimbursed after delivery). I did find a place that will do a basic 2D ultrasound to see the heartbeat for $25, so we might just do that. The RNP seemed to think that the specialist might do the ultrasound and bill us for it, so it can be picked up by the medicaid coverage once it goes through. The good news is that we are on day 22 of the application, so it should be approved in the next 23 days…

Blood pressure was awesome (107/71) and apparently my urine was ok, since they didn’t set me up for the glucose challenge test. They did take 10 vials of blood (the phlebotomist got me on the first stick and it didn’t hurt!), so it’ll be interesting to see what all comes back. They are testing my thyroid because it has gotten smaller since I’ve been pregnant. Apparently my body likes being pregnant ok, LOL!

The cramping has pretty much receded, to be replaced by some moderate nausea in the mornings and evenings. Food is definitely not always my friend. The cravings for beef continue (it’s pretty much the only protein that I want), and my blood was nice and dark when they drew it yesterday.

I can’t believe I’m two months in already… mentally, I’m doing better. Having people say, “Congratulations!” doesn’t make me squirm as much, so that’s good, right? I’m still completely freaked out and overwhelmed when they push breast feeding at the WIC office.

Financially, things are about to get even more interesting– since S. is a substitute teacher, he will be done with regular work in the next few weeks, and he hasn’t found anything for the summer so far.  The stress is pretty overwhelming at times.

Wonderful News (I hope)!

Posted in Pregnant with tags , , , , , on May 15, 2012 by Me

Today someone S. works with suggested that we contact the local University Hospital for help with everything. I did some looking online, and discovered that they have a free program where they basically will do case management and advocate for me to help with all of these damn applications. Additionally, I’ll get to see a doctor right away while my application for medicaid is pending! This is all fabulous news, as I was concerned that at the current rate, I might make it in to see a doctor when it’s time to deliver…

In the ongoing Saga of the Welfare Application, I faxed 14 items to the caseworker there, which hopefully will complete our file, but I’m not holding my breath. She is having a really hard time comprehending that I was NOT employed by the last spa that I worked at, and that as such, I did not make an hourly rate, they do not have records of my average scheduled hours, and I’m not eligible for unemployment. She sent me a form for them to fill out, and they’re not much interested in completing it since, well, I’m not there anymore, and I was NEVER AN EMPLOYEE. I wrote the caseworker a nice letter, where I attempted to explain everything in small words, so I’m hoping she gets it. The thing that really sucks is that I can’t call her. She is based out of an office in upstate NV, and works from home, so in order to get in touch with her, I have to either call and leave a message with the office, then they get the message to her, or I have to fax her a letter. Either way, I have to just hope that she gets the message and calls me back soon. It’s somewhat less than optimal.

So, seven weeks on Wed. Wow. And possibly even prenatal care in the next couple of weeks. This is very comforting.


Posted in Pregnant with tags , , , on May 10, 2012 by Me

6 weeks today.

Things have really evened out emotionally– I still can’t even begin to comprehend that we’re going to have a baby, but I’m slowly becoming ok with the idea. I think that I’ll be more excited once I get to a doctor and know that everything is going to be ok.

Welfare has been a total nightmare. All WIC did was hand us the forms and send us on our way. It seems that every time we think we’ve gotten them everything they need, we get a letter telling us that they need another form filled out. The whole massage therapist thing has them completely befuddled, since I didn’t have a consistent hourly rate (and when you take what I made per massage and stretch it out over the dead time when I was just hanging out, it just confuses them even more). Since I’m not at the old salon anymore, I’m just going with unemployed– it seemed like the easiest thing to do, but they STILL want paperwork filled out by the asshat that I use to work for, so we’ll see how THAT goes. I didn’t really want to let them know that I’m pregnant, but apparently it’s EVERYBODY’s business if you need to go on welfare. Hopefully it will all be sorted out soon, so I can get to the damn doctor before my second trimester… I just feel like we are being looked at with suspicion because we are WHITE. I don’t much like that feeling, since we really need the help :-/

I’ve been doing about the same physically– I’m down a few pounds (yay!) and still having the intense cramping. According to friends I’ve talked to and sites I’ve been looking at, it’s pretty normal, and as long as there isn’t any blood, it should all be fine. One friend of mine said that the cramping was so bad that labor, by comparison, was “nothing”. I can totally believe it! There are times when I’m about >< this close to having S. take me to the hospital, but then it passes. They never last more than about 10-15 minutes, but it FEELS like forever.

Our two boy names: Seth Alexander and Sebastian Arthur.  Girl names are: Serra Anastasia and Sabrina Ariel.  Boy/Girl twins are Seth and Serra 🙂